11.25.2007

OHHMGOSH

Dear Diane,

Why can't they remember how they used to be the same way? Why can't they even pretend to understand the bull we're going through? I don't get it...why can't God fix the problem between teenagers & their parents? My friend just got kicked out of his house. He has nowhere to go. He's going to have to drop out of school, get his GED, and go to Westside Tech. I'll probably never get to see him again. This kid always put me in a good mood even when I didn't want to smile. I can talk to him about anything && everything. He's never judged me. I understand that I can't offer him my house. I understand that I can't help him...even though I'd do anything to be able to. Maybe God wants me to learn that people won't stay there forever. I get it...now can't JJ just come back?? I miss him soo much already...I can't even imagine what school's going to be like without him. Truth: I'm completely && totally in love with him...and he knows it, but he loves someone else & I've learned to accept that. He's my best guy friend, my protection, & my favorite hug. He's like a brother to me. I honestly don't know what I'm going to do without him. He's the first person to ever tell me that no matter what time it is, if I'm in trouble, I could call him. He was like my bodyguard. I know this is making me sound extremely selfish, but I want My James!!

Yours,
Elizabeth

11.21.2007

Everything's Amazing.

Dear Diane,

I know I haven't written in all of forever plus 2 days, but to be honest, I completely forgot about this. Since I last wrote, I dumped Tyler, have had 3 other boyfriends since him, and met the most amazing boy ever. Well, Bret is my boyfriend right now and has been for the past 3 weeks. It'll be a month in 6 days. He goes to a different school, but we hang out a lot anyway. My whole family likes him a lot & he treats me well. He's the nicest boy I've ever met & he's not exactly ugly. Right now, knock on wood, my life is pretty much perfect. I'm helping Bret get his grades up & develop a better relationship with his mom. Plus, my mom's helping him get his grades up, too! I also have a ton of friends I hang out with even with Bret in my life.
I've been getting along with my family amazingly well. Modeling has gotten off to a fantastic start. I can almost be myself around Bret! I'm soo happy right now. I can't remember a time when everything has been this almost perfect.

XOXO,
Elizabeth